I’m having a crappy Mom week. I’m not sure if it’s the post partum or just summer vacation setting in. Whatever the reason, these kids of mine…are getting on my nerves.
Everyone else is getting on my nerves too. It’s not them. It’s me. But nothing is rubbing me the right way lately. I feel like I can’t do anything right, from choosing foods for the kids, discipline, to spending too much money and not keeping up with putting away clothes. And I have no tolerance for anything. At. All.
Can’t keep mac and cheese on your fork? Don’t cry to me.
Don’t like the way I clean? Do it yourself.
Need yet another juice box? Are your arms broke? (I actually asked that of the Count yesterday…he replied, “They not broke, Mamma, they just tired and want you to get it.” Hrmph)
Some days the weight of taking care of a family is more than I can handle. I don’t want to do laundry. I don’t want to cook breakfast, lunch, or dinner. I don’t want to pick up toys. I don’t want to drive to swim lessons. I don’t want to change diapers. I don’t want to schedule appointments. I don’t want to help wipe your butt.
But then I realize I also don’t want to get out of my pj’s. I don’t want to brush my hair. I don’t want to take a shower. Or leave the couch. I will, however, realize at 3am all of these things actually need to be done and get out of bed and clean the carpet.
Post Partum can suck it.
Thus starts another round of therapy. I was really hoping this was over. Apparently not.
Sucky!
I can sympathize with not wanting to get out of bed. I’m right there with you, this week.
Hope it gets better.
Totally sucks! You are doing the right thing by being aware of the problem and getting help.
Hang in there! Can the Kaiser take a day or two off to give you a bit of a break or at least let the four of you hang out for some fun time with an extra adult to help out?
Take care!!
I’m in the same funk and it’s over 4 years later since I had the last one, so I can’t blame it on post partum. I can, however, blame it on summer vacation. And the fact my husband is working from home during it.
Ugh. I SO relate.
Shash
Hey it must be going around. I’ve had the exact same feelings this last week and I feel like I’m relapsing into PPD. This blows. Good luck to you and let me know your secret to not jumping off the roof!
I’m in the same boat and it’s sucking the life out of me.
I actually screamed at my kids today. Why? They were laughing too loud. I’m such a damn bitch. 🙁
Sorry you’re hating life right now. I can relate…aside from the squeezing children through your genitals part.
Don’tcha hate when you’re grumpy and screaming at everyone and everything and the kids are disgustingly cute in reply? Little brat wankers.
Wow, you’re human. Shocked, I’m shocked. Go easy on yourself.
I think summer vacation stresses all moms out, so you’re not alone there.. ((((hug))))
I’m sorry.
I hate the part where I only get to sit and eat ice cream and post comments on blogs after everyone else is asleep. No wonder my ass has gotten so big! Damn.
Going back a couple posts, I’m totally missing the part where Peanut’s hair looks bad. I think she looks adorable! What’s wrong with those bangs? The nice part for you is that her hair is still whispy enough that if you cut her bangs crooked you can’t tell. Sweet Pea’s hair is so thick now that bangs have become a scary thing for me to deal with. They’re never straight so at some point I just have to decide to stop attempting to straighten them, before I cut them down to her scalp. ha ha!
In happy news, just remember you’ve got BlogHer to look forward to! Wahoo!
Queen — I relate to this 100%. Just yesterday I blogged something similar. I feel guilty because I just don’t want to deal with anyone. If I were locked in solitary confinement for a week, I’d be SOOOOO happy. I’m starting to feel a little neurotic. And you know somehting? I don’t know if there’s a cure! I’ll be that crazy woman standing in the kitchen yelling at her children, except in this case no one will be THERE! -sigh- Let’s hang in there — or at least try to hang in there?
You are a mom. You do the work of 4 people all at once. There are going to be times when you are just zapped out.Right now… I am a teacher home in the summer with 18 month od twins. My hubby is a farmer who works EVERY DAY. He gets 4 hours off on Sundays. I have them in daycare 1 whole day a week so that I don’t go completely BERSERK!! I also go to a therapist and pay my $20.00 copay and BITCH like crazy.
I feel like it is that one day off that gets me through the week. Is this an option for you? Can you trade child care with a friend? It sounds like you need a break for a little bit. YOU ARE SO NORMAL!! Don’t worry!! What kind of weirdo would you be if you GAVE GAVE GAVE GAVE all the time and you had no problem with it??
First of all, thanks to everyone for the well wishes.
Laura-that is EXACTLY what happened at therapy today. And exactly what we will be implimenting here. A break for Mom once a week. Because alone in the shower should not be the only break I get.
I feel so much more sane when all of you guys go through the same thing. What would I do without this comment section?
Queen of Spain, i know exactly what you mean, and what you need to do is to take some time out for yourself – whether by hook or by crook. like last sunday afternoon i sent my hubby and my one year old boy for a long drive with the boys – and i sat at home, had wine, a long bath and watched a chick flick – they were the 4 hours of my life that I have most treasured since i became a mom a year ago!
I understand – I just went off my meds a few weeks ago and I can feel my depression creeping back in. I’m fighting it off, hoping it will go away, but I’m not sure at the moment.
Yes, you do need a break. In the shower is not enough at all. You need time to do something just for you and recharge your mommy batteries.