I’m supposed to show you more photos of all the Magic Hats that have come to my door today. It’s Wednesday and I promised Wednesday hat updates.
But instead of showing more photos today, as I had planned, I needed to stop for a minute and say a few words about what has transpired:
You have knocked me off my feet.
Not the kind where the guy with the big check comes to your door and the little old lady answers and looks shocked for a minute and then screams and jumps up and down. But the kind where you draw in air and hold your breath and cant’ let it out…and when you do it’s so slow and deliberate that you just cry. And cry. And cry a bit more because you just don’t know what else to do.
I think what put me over the edge was a box from one of Aaron’s cousins. He included a poem, written in honor of their grandmother, who used to write poems for just about everything…including the day I became a part of their family.
Many of you hand made me hats. You painstakingly used your hands, something I can’t do, to make something just for me.
Or some of you went and picked out something you knew I’d either look fabulous in or would laugh at hysterically or would love, not matter how tacky.
The point being you took the time to truly think about me, even if it was just while shopping for the holidays or grabbing yarn at the store. I’m thinking i really do know some of the most amazing people on earth. And am related to a lot of them.
The other reason those photos are missing is because I’m holed up inside my room, after a long day of all my in-laws being here, including my husband’s brother and his family. Yes, my kids are playing with their cousins for essentially the first time….since the last time everyone was really too little to remember. My home is filled to the brim with laughing and yelling and kid noises that somehow don’t sound nearly as bad as playdate squeals or sleepover threats to ‘get to bed now kids….’ because it’s family – family that probably won’t be together again for another long stretch of time.
So yes, I am overwhelmed because the hats KEEP COMING and the love just keeps enveloping me until nothing, not even Lupus, can break through. Ok, maybe it does from time to time when I need to excuse myself to lay down for a bit…but even then there are hats all over reminding me to stay strong. They are up in my bedroom and down in the living room and by the front door and coat rack…and soon to be hanging on my new hat racks…made with love by my three greatest loves on this planet- my husband, my son, and my daughter.
Thank you. All of you. Those words seem so easy to write but please, please understand and feel the weight behind them. You all inspire me to try harder and to fight harder. Thank you.
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