I’m sitting here trying to figure out how to put into words my emotions today. I want to blog about my youngest turning five. How she’s gotten her ears pierced. How she couldn’t be more proud to be turning into a ‘big girl.’
But it’s too complex for what feels like puny words. Words that will pale in comparison to what’s happening in my heart and in my head.
All I know is carrying her is hard. She’s getting too big for me to hold on my hip. My hip that’s held her and her brother for so many years. My hip that’s labored under the weight of what I always, lovingly, called my ‘sack of potatoes.’
My hips aren’t done. They want more. And I ache and cry as I stand and automatically shift my weight…swaying the sway of a woman with a child on her hip.
But my hand now slips from her bottom and her weight is just nearly too much.
This hip will soon be empty.
And I honestly can’t bear the pain and sting, when I so badly long for this hip to be full.
Recent Comments